A poem I wrote on the reflections of the awakening soul.
Inspired by my own personal journey and the folklore stories of The Red Shoes, Rapunzel and Cinderella.
Shadow Dancing in The Palace
Ode
to the seduction
Delicious
in the dark
Safe
so spacious comfort
In
discomfort you stay apart
Separate
from your shining self
The
soul of who you really are
Seductive
ego dancing
Those
red shoes carry you far
Dancing
dancing into the night
Decadent
smiling faces
Emerging
from the shadows
Alluring
in dark places
Inner
chaos
Anger,
frustration, fear, pain
Step
outside your pain-body to see
The
ego fighting you again
Take
a moment of reflection
just
a moment to see
that
all that is happening
belongs
not to you and me
Stories
from the past
condition
our today
Patterns
replay unconsciously
And
haunt us in every way
Anger
smothers sadness
Hooked
from memories before
Times
when we've been let down
And
now we fight to score
So
the battle is never over
And
we choose to live in the dark
Expectations
never fulfilled
Disappointment
fuels the spark
We
live out the story
Avoiding
the poisoned cup
Afraid
to let the ego die
for
what it might drag up
So
we learn to cover the mirror
Avoid
to see inside
The
truth of our hurting
And
prefer to live in lies
A
messy web of avoidance
everything
of pain
Inside
the castle walls so high
Never
to be seen again
Loyal
guardians on every entrance
Pretending
to be so strong
For
a moment you'll feel protected
thinking
here's where you belong
But
the truth has ways of leaking
It
seeps though barricades
Wearing
masks of ego
That
come in many shades
Creeping
through the darkness
Leaking
through every wall
Distortions
of your every self
Dance
you till you fall
Dancing
through the crowds
At
your masked ball of delight
Twirling
in colourful costumes
Disguised
in the night.
'Take
this pill of unconsciousness'
Whisper
voices of your fears
'Best
not show your true self
You've
been so hurt through the years'
'I'll
keep you safe, I am your friend
Just
slip into illusion
Come
dance with me into the dark
We'll
enjoy this party of delusion'
Smoking
the pipe of disbelief
trance
into your shadow self
Proud
to hide emotions
Giving
you sense of wealth
And
for every penny pocketed
You'll
wear your medals with pride
Dancing
like a peacock
Whist
your soul is left to hide
'Come
dancing with me' shadows sing
'I'll
dance you into the void
A-void-dance
thus not to see
So
your mind stays employed'
Dancing
still dancing
Twirling
through nights and days
Faces,
places, leave no traces
Life
feels like it's a blaze
But
in this powerful palace
Illusions
leak from every wall
The
face showing off gets so tired
Dancing
the eternal ball
Your
feet, they get so weary
Wrinkled
face behind the mask
Sadness
in this lonely space
How
long can this facade last?
Cracks
appearing on every wall
As
truth leaks its path
Your
paintings cover pealing layers
No
longer holding fast
All
guests have left the party
Some
have woken for the muse
Some
have bitten the apple
Yet
you're still dancing in red shoes
And
in the darkened corridor
A
soft and lonesome voice
Echoes
through now empty rooms
You
know you have a choice
Visit
the place in this lonely home
A
place you have disowned
Dark,
dusty, with a hidden key
Where
all visits are postponed
Inside
the mirrors stay covered
To
defend your precious life
Because
visions of the truth
Feel
like a cutting knife
See
the battle is never over
When
we choose to ignore our pain
We
project it onto others
So
they are the ones to blame
We
think it keeps us safe
So
we don't have to show
The
vulnerable little self inside
Still
hurting from long ago
Pass
over the responsibility
And
wear the face of smile
Wear
the mask of victim
So
you're not guilty in the trial
But
hurt people, hurt people
And
deny their source of fear
Pretending
to be someone else
And
lock in every tear.
The
ones wearing beautiful masks
In
the theatrics of the ego
Are
the ones who are also hurting
Who
keep fighting to be the hero
Do
you think it could be possible
For
you to lift away the veil
On
every single dusty mirror
Hanging
in your self made jail?
Own
up to your darkness
Choose
the lantern bright
Dare
to show your vulnerable self
And
give up this useless fight?
Put
down the knife
Allow
yourself to cry
It's
okay to feel emotions
And
give up the living lies
Come
down from your tower
And
feel your beating heart
It's
safe to take the masks off
And
make a shining start
Stop
the never ending music
Of
the chorus of the mind
Sink
into your body
Join
the soul you left behind
Take
off your dancing shoes
Peal
off layers from the wall
Start
taking down the bricks
Go
to the voice down the hall
You
know where the key is
Upon
your heart inside a locket
As
the inner voice calls so loud
It's
no longer fair to block it
The
tiny self silenced inside
Has
been calling for attention
To
come out and see the light
Break
free from false convention
Yes,
reach for the door
Unlock
your way to truth
Listen
to your inner wisdom
halt
the battle, call a truce
Open
up the curtains
Let
light flood inside
Feel
the warming glow
Of
your heart beat so alive
It's
time to lift the veil
Upon
the mirror to your soul
Allow
soft power, vulnerability
Let
yourself feel whole
You
don't need those shoes
To
dance your way into the light
Surrender
for truth to shine in
And
let your soul shine bright.
© Hazel Evans 2016
